~There's a girl in my mirror crying tonight, and there's nothing I can say to make her feel all right.~

~theotherkhairul~

Haters are always spreading rumors; “I” did this, “I” did that. Well guess what? “I” don’t give a fuck to whatever those haters said. Now go spread that.

~theotherkhairul...~

Saya Suka Kehidupan Baru Saya.

Baiklah... Dah lama rasanya tidak menggomel diruang maya ini... sejak memasuki tahun baru, segalanya baru dan ada yang setengahnya bakal baru... contohnya... Laptop... Hp... dan yang dah baru ialah... kehidupan, pengajian, rumah, bilik, house-mate and etc...

Buat pengetahuan kamu semua... Ye... saya sangat-sangat suka akan rumah, bilik dan house-mate baru saya... Masa mula-mula masuk adalah terselit di dalam hati sedikit kerisauan... yelah... rumah baru dan kehidupan baru, takut tak dapat adapt... tapi Alhamdulillah... Dengan jayanya diri cepat menerima persekitaran yang baru.

Daripada berkereta ke kampus dahulunya, Kini, hanya berjalan kaki setiap hari... Itu yang saya suka... Sangat-sangat suka. Perubahan yang sangat bagus saya rasa. Menggapa? Kerana kini hidup lebih berdikari, kerana tidak perlu mengharapkan orang. Tidak perlu bergantung kepada orang.

Saya bangga dengan diri sendiri kerana berjaya mencapai angan-angan... Apakah angan-angan tersebut? Iaitu, memcabar diri untuk tidak berasa terlalu selesa dengan kemudahan yang sedia ada selama ini... Jusco, Tesco, Melaka Central berjalan kaki. Suka! Saya suka dengan kehidupan sekarang. Kini saya boleh memasak tiap-tiap hari...

Rumah sangat-sangat dekat dengan semua tempat menarik! Jusco! Tesco! UiTM! MC! Popular! 7Elevan! dan banyak lagi... saya suka... tiap-tiap hari berjalan ke kelas ditemani dua sahabat yang best... Gemox dan Chihuahua... Sentiasa bertiga... bersama Cik Quyah... berjalan pagi-pagi...

Lagi yang saya suka, sekarang bangun lewat pun tak perlu risau sangat... Rumah dekat. :) Itu yang paling best! :) Rumah tidak sebesar mana, tetapi kalau gembira rumah yang kecil pun terasa besar! :)

Aku dan Planning.

Wah~ Tajuk entry aku...Bukan main lagi... ehem ehem... haha... Okay ari ni ari isnin... sangat boring. Hajatnya mau ke Kuala Lumpur... teman sahabatku Bos a.k.a Cik Fizah 'menopup' stok nya. Yea... Sahabatku ini muda-muda dah ada business sendiri. Bagus syg... I'm proud with U!

Ehem... ehem...Sebenarnya... entry kali ini nak cite pasal planning aku tuk diri sendiri sebelum balik melaka. *Insya'allah kalau xde aral melintang bakal berpindah kampus* Selepas menempuh badai yang lara... *cewah~* Maksudnya macam-macam mslh dah jadilah tu... Baru aku sedar...

Sedar Diri ke?Hurm... bukan... baru aku sedar... Diri boleh pergi jauh kalau diri nak... Apelah ayat ni... Selama ni dah lame sedar... tapi asyik ditimpa mslh je aku ni... So, tuk menggembirakan hati balik... tuk menaikkan semangat ini balik... Tuk melupakan yg tah pape... aku nak nak wat 'anjakan paradigma' ha~ hamik ko~ ayat gle nak top2 je keje...

Oh~ sebelum lupa... ari ni kawan baik aku... Ala ade kat entry yg lps tu... register kat S.Alam... dapat kos MESCOM gitu... Busy agaknya...mesej x bls... Well syg... Good Luck... Tunggu Azza kat sane k? Jgn nakal-nakal... Ha~ tak dilupa jugak kwn yg sorg lagi jugak... nama Piqa gak... samelah dapat p S.Alam... Kos apetah... tak ingat... Tahniah okay?

Okay... Sambung balik... sebelum tahun 2010 abis, aku nak p kerat rambut... pendek...For my new life lah katakan... kata nak wat anjakan paradigma... So, ni langkah pertamalah... Mesti org akan cakap... 'Ekeleh~ kerat rambut pun nak kecoh ke???' Okay... buat pengetahuan semua... rambut saya ni x pernah dipotong lebih dari 2inchi okay? Maksudnya... rambut sentiasa paras pinggang... So, nak try ptg pendek paras telinga la ye?

Okay... satu sudah... yang kedua... cuti ade lagi seminggu ni aku nak p 'hu-a-hu-a' maksud~ nak p foya-foyalah... duit takde tapi it's okay... bak kata aku... kalau kua dengan kawan baik... tak perlu duit... cukup luangkan masa bersama dah rasa cam p shopping gile2... *cewah~* Ala... kua bukan nak p wat pe pun... paling-paling pun p karok kat RedBox...

Yang ketiga... mungkin nak ikut Bos p kl... p round-round... p 'hu-a-hu-a' lagi... kat kl mungkin duit abs kot~ hahaha... p Times Square pun okay gak kan? main kat Cosmo world... Teringat dulu-dulu masa 'journey to see Oppa' aiceh~ ha poyo lagi... pastu balik... esok nya kua plak ng Kakak Munirah and Zaty... P main bowling... okay... yang seterusnya tak tau lagi... bakal difikirkan...

Cukup seminggu sebelum naik sem... T naik sem mesti teruk gila life... insya'allah tidak begitu. I'm Strong!

Someone Is you By After School

Oh oh oh~ Ilove this song... tak tau nape... Best pe...

**Hangul + Romanization**

눈에보이지않아도더이상두렵지않아

nune boiji anhado deo isang duryeopji anha

어두웠던지난모든그마음크게한번웃어주면돼

eoduwotdeon jinan modeun geu maeum keuge hanbeon useojumyeon dwae

언제나나를지켜주던니사랑이날웃게한거야

eonjena nareul jikyeojudeon ni sarangi nal utge hangeoya

지금처럼그렇게웃어줘행복을전해줄게 just like you

jigeumcheoreom geureoke useojwo haengbogeul jeonhaejulge just like you

이제는너를느낄수있어내가사랑할단한사람 is that someone is you

ijeneun neoreul neukkil su isseo naega saranghal dan hansaram is that someone is you

아주오랜친구처럼밤새전화길들고

aju oraen chingucheoreom bamsae jeonhwagil deulgo

소근소근설레이는내마음네게모두말해줄거야

sogeunsogeun seolleineun naemaeum nege modu malhaejulgeoya

오다가와날안아줘용기내 every things gonna be alright

o dagawa naranajwo yongginae every things gonna be alright

다신널혼자두지않아약속해

dasin neol honja duji anha yaksokhae

언제나나를지켜준니사랑이날웃게한거야

eonjena nareul jikyeojun ni sarangi nal utge hangeoya

지금처럼그렇게웃어줘행복을전해줄게 just like you

jigeumcheoreom geureoke useojwo haengbogeul jeonhaejulge just like you

이제는너를느낄수있어내가사랑할단한사람 is that someone is you

ijeneun neoreul neukkil su isseo naega saranghal dan hansaram is that someone is you

I wanna be with you 이제야알았어

I wanna be with you ijeya arasseo

어느누구도널대신할순없어

eoneu nugudo neol daesin hal sun eobseo

(지금처럼만지금처럼만행복을전해줄게 just like you) just like you

(jigeumcheoreomman jigeumcheoreomman haengbogeul jeonhaejulge just like you) just like you

(지금처럼만지금처럼만행복을전해줄게 just like you) just like you

(jigeumcheoreomman jigeumcheoreomman haengbogeul jeonhaejulge just like you) just like you

지금처럼그렇게웃어줘행복을전해줄게 just like you

jigeumcheoreom geureoke useojwo haengbogeul jeonhaejulge just like you

이제는너를느낄수있어내가사랑할단한사람 someone is you

ijeneun neoreul neukkil su isseo naega saranghal dan hansaram someone is you

지금처럼그렇게웃어줘행복을전해줄게 just like you

jigeumcheoreom geureoke useojwo haengbogeul jeonhaejulge just like you

이제는너를느낄수있어내가사랑할단한사람 is that someone is you

ijeneun neoreul neukkil su isseo naega saranghal dan hansaram is that someone is you

**English Translation**

Even though we’re out of sight

There’s no need to fear anymore

The heart has been through all the hard times

Now it’s okay to try smiling

I smile as I know that

Your heart has been protecting me

Just smile at me like this moment

I will share with you my happiness

just like you

Now I can feel you

The only person that I love

is that someone is you

That when we talked on the phone all night long

Like old friends

All whispering, it made my heart flutter

I will tell you all this

Oh come close, hold me, gather your heart

every things gonna be alright

Promise me that you won’t leave me alone ever again

I smile as I know that

Your heart has been protecting me

Just smile at me like this moment

I will share with you my happiness just like you

Now I can feel you

The only person that I love

is that someone is you

I wanna be with you

Not until now have I realized

That no matter who it is, they can’t replace you

Just like this one moment, like this one moment

I will share with you my happiness just like you

just like you

Just like this one moment, like this one moment

I will share with you my happiness just like you

just like you

Just smile at me like this moment

I will share with you my happiness just like you

Now I can feel you

The only person that I love

someone is you

Just smile at me like this moment

I will share with you my happiness

just like you

Now I can feel you

The only person that I love

is that someone is you

credit: bugs

Am i still a loser??? Nervous to Death!

Hari ni... 9nov... Sok 10nov... tau x nape??? Sok Result sem ni keluar... Tengok status kawan-kawan kat Fb... Masing-masing cuak... aku ni konon-konon je tenang... steady... tapi dalam hati Allah je r y tahu... Hari ni bukan main kecoh lain FB, Uitm blh plak wat testing2 kua result... pada yang bertuah dapat la tgk smlm... tapi kejap je dpt tgk...

Aku sblm tido, try-try la masuk student portal... mane tau dapat masuk ke... HARAPAN la weh~ mmg tak keluar pun lagi... yang best... Dengar-dengar kata Uitm akan email result... Klo macam tu alhamdulillah lah... tak bersemaklah 'trafik' nanti... Ha... bila Uitm wat macam ni kan bagus... tak payah nak tunggu kul9 sok... tapi... masalahnya aku agak berapa tak sure time submit borang dulu aku letak email aku ke ayah...

Well... apa boleh buat sekarang ni??? Tunggu dengan sbr jelah~ *Aku x boleh tido... terseksa rasa..* Hu... penantian ni satu penyeksaan tau x??? Mmg terseksa... Sebab sem ni aku target nak dapat 3pointer... nak 3 gak... sem lps dpt 2... sipi-sipi nak msk 3 tapi tak de rezeki... sedih Allah je r yang tahu... Aku tahu... apa rasa bila kita sorang dalam kawan-kawan kita gagal... Sakit tahu... cam rasa LOSER gila...

Sem ni aku belaja lebih sikit*banyaklah jugak sebenarnya* dengan harapan dapat 'buang' title LOSER... Sh*t la sey bila teringat sem lepas... Walaupun aku dapat tahu awal dari Si Buah Hati... *wink wink* Time tu bukan main loser gila aku rasa... malu... sedih segala... Ye r... cuba korang tempatkan diri korang kat situasi ni... dalam 'geng-geng korang, lulus tapi korang sorang je yang gagal..' bapak sedih la!!!!

Persoalan sekarang ni... Boleh ke aku beat my 'past pointer'??? Boleh ke aku capai target aku??? Boleh ke aku 'tebus' maruah aku??? *Cewah!!!* Maruah la tu kalo dah gagal... Takut!!! Nape mesti takut??? Hurm... aku x cakap lagi berapa aku target... Sekurang-kurangnya aku nak dapat 3.00-3.something... Sem lepas 2.9 x silap... amik intersesi hancur! Turun pointer aku~ Cis!

Aku Boleh! *ayat nak sedapkan hati*... Tapi aku selalu berpegang dengan ayat ni... 'Kalau gagal sekali pun, aku gagal dengan baik... Aku dah wat yang terbaik, tapi kalau gagal jgk... mungkin bukan rezeki aku... dan mungkin Allah tak nak aku lupa diri...' Ha... jangan salah faham tang lupa diri na~ Tu maksudnya... Ada kelemahan lagi yang perlu aku perbaiki... kalau berjaya, aku kena tingkatkan lagi... Bukan bersenang-senang...

So... Just wait and see je r! Owh... lupa nak selit... Sok my 'Bf angkat' nak datang from Sabah... nak kena jemput kat Airport... So, kena gak tido! Nite-nite fellas~ Love you!

p/s: Berdebar!!! Jantung nak pecah... ayat nak 'metaphora' je keje... aish~ dah terikut-ikut En.Labu ni!

Korea, Impian dan Harapan.

~Oppa~ Saranghea.. Jowahea...~

Arghhh!!! tu lah yang aku rasa sekarang ni... kenape??? Baru hari ni dapat layan KBS World sejak balik dari Melaka. Tadi hujan lebat sangat... after hantar my parent out, dorang nak p KL... My dad ada keje kat sana... then black-out... Frust gile... but after ada elektrik balik... on tv, tkn 391 tgh showing Let's Go Dream Team! Wah!!!! Dah lame tak tengok... Jadinya 'Bapak' Excited' la!!! hahaha...

Kenapa excited sangat??? Entahlah... xtau nak cakap camne... Klo org yang pernah alami camni je y tahu... Ha~ Dulu masa aku minat bagai nak mati dekat 'Gu Jun Pyo' A.K.A Lee Min Ho... Kakak aku kutuk macam-macam... Tapi sekarang??? Baru dia rasa apa yang aku rasa... Sekarang ni dia duk minat kat artis filipin yang aritu TV3 tayang... ala yang cite Stairway To Heaven... tapi yang filipin punya... Dia duk minat nak mati kat heroin pompuan tu... Ha... Siap cakap kat Cik *Which i called my mum Cik* 'Barulah Along tahu camne perasaan Angah dulu camne...' Ha... Baru Ko tahu ye???

I bet everyone have this kinda feeling kan??? Xboleh lari meh~ sebab minat kite boleh jadi sangat 'gila'... Seriously... Aku pernah buat keje gile sebab minat nak mati kat Lee Min Ho ni... Duit??? Jangan cakaplah... banyak duit habis tuk Kekasih Hatiku yang sorng tu... *Hakhakhak... jangan marah...* Gile takgilenya aku... p sign up as member kat satu forum ni... kat situlah aku menghabiskan masa dan duit... Demi kerana... LEE MIN HO... Hanya kwn-kwn yang tahu aku ni minat korea je tahu camne perasaan aku time tu... Menangis tiap kali teringat... *serious aku nagis*... Kawan aku time tu dah naik benci ng Lee Min Ho sebab aku... Tapi nak wat camne??? Dah aku jatuh cinta pada dia...

Ha... Tu time sangat gile... tapi sekarang dah kurang... mgkn sbb dah masuk degree, masa x banyak... Assignment pun makin bertimbun... Mungkin sebab tu lah... Lagi-lagi sejak duduk sendiri... duit pun x banyak... *Maaf sayang sebab i dah xde masa untuk u... hahaha* Well... sampai adik-adik aku pun terjebak sama... Ha! Lagi la... Siap pandai cakap korea lagi... *sikit-sikit la x fasih sangat*... Dek kerana minat tu... Kan bagus kalo minat nak belaja pun macam minat korea??? *Harapan la sayangku~*

Tahun ini aku sempat jugak lah pegi konsert Super Junior, Fan-Meeting U-kiss and etc... tahun depan??? Xtahu lagi lor~ Insya'allah... Sekarang ni pun banyak drama korea aku tertinggal... dah terlalu banyak sangat cite keluar... sampai aku pun xtahu nak tengok yang mana... Ni semua KOREA punya pasal... Aku x salahkan KOREA... sebab korea amat-amat membahagiakan hidup aku... *Ah~ tipu!* Tipu??? Tau x nape??? Penah rasa tak... bila kita minat yang tersangat-sangat sampai rasa memderita???? Ha~ tu akulah... orang lain aku xtahu...

Teringat lagi masa aku bersusah-payah usaha nak jumpa Le Min Ho kat Kl... Frust sangat-sangat sebab xdpt nak jumpa dia dapatkan siggy dia... *Sobsobsob* sampai sebulan menci... patah hati... punya pasal... tapi dah jumpa balik member yang minat dia... ha~ Cinta balik... Sambung balik sayang tu... *lawak sangat time ni*
Sebulan tau... sebulan... bapak menci la time tu... bile teringat... hati pilu sangat... nagislah bile teringat... Wah~ Hanya Allah je tahu persaan aku time tu... Hebat xhebatnya penangan Korea... *wink wink*

Tapi... sejak... aku ngn dia kawan... aku ng y sorg lagi tu dah x kwn... aku dah kurang sikit ng korea... tambah-tambah lagi Lee Min Ho x kua cite baru... Tapi hari ni wat aku sedar... Wat aku sedar diri... wat aku kembali minat balik... exited weh layan korea ni... xtipu... Wat aku sedar and ingat balik impian aku... tahu x apa impian aku??? Nak p korea... Kalo boleh nak stay kat korea tuk beberapa tahun... and yang x boleh bla... nak kawen ng org korea! *perasaan la* tapi tu x mustahilkan??? hehehe...

Hurm... Baru-baru ni gak hidup aku macam 'hell'... lagi-lagi ng dia tu... kalo ko pun ada planning hidup ko... aku pun ada pe~ Thanx again sebab wat aku sedar balik benda yang aku dah lupa... iaitu~ Korea! Aku nak capai impian aku gak... Bukan lah maksudnya ng dia aku x capai... tapi... ko ada life ko... aku pun ada... So, after habis blaja... insya'Allah lagi 1tahun setengah ni... aku keje jap... kumpul duit banyak sikit... pastu try cari keje kat korea... keje and having fun~ *Insya'Allah*... Aku dah bosan 'mengharapkan' aku dalam planning ko... So, aku move on... *sedihnye*

Kalo Ko tuk aku... pegi jauh mana pun, pegi mana pun... Kita akan jumpe... Kalo ada jodoh kita... Allah akan mudahkan... serasi ke tak... itu bukan masalah... Payah macam mana pun aku nak jugak try... Aku caya, kalo aku nak, aku akan usaha dapatkan... Mgkn ko akan cakap mustahil... tapi aku nak jugak! So, aku akan capai impian aku... ko capailah impian ko... Oh Lee Min Ho ku... Sabar Ye sayang... Xlame je lagi kita akan jumpa... *bweeeek* hahahaha

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Pasrah...

Bukan cerita Pasrah okay~

Hurm... aku pasrah...

Dah macam-macam cuba...

Usaha... tapi macam tu jugak...

Akhirnya pasrah...

Sekarang ni...

Aku hanya mampu untuk berdoa...

Dan yakin...

Tu saja...

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Ya Allah...

Hanya Kau-lah yang mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hamba-Mu...

Kerana sesungguhnya Kau-lah yang maha mengetahui segala-galanya...

Ya Allah...

Jika dia untukku... mudahkanlah perhubungan ini...

Jika dia bukan untukku... bantulah aku untuk menerima bahawa dia bukan untukku...

Sesungguhnya hanya kau yang mengetahui apa yang terbaik untukku...

Ya Allah...

Yakinkanlah hatiku...

Kuatkanlah Hatiku...

Aku percaya Kau punya agenda untuk ku...

Aku percaya segala yang terjadi pasti ada hikmahnya...

Sesungguhnya hanya pada-Mu aku meminta dan memohon...

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin....

Balik lah... I dah penat tunggu...

U...lame nye u pergi...

I kat sini penat tunggu u balik...

U janji nak balik awal...

Tapi mana U???

U... U selalu wat i tertunggu-tunggu...

U x rasa kesian ke???

Asyik i je y kena tunggu u???

U tau x...

I selalu tunggu u...

U selalu tinggalkan i...

Baliklah... i dah penat tunggu...

U... I rasa sejak u pergi...

U selalu 'busy'...

Ayat 'femes' u...

Sayang... t i text u back k???

Sayang i'm driving... text u later...

Sayang i busy, jap lagi i call u k???

I tunggu u...

tunggu... tunggu... dan tunggu...

U text i... tapi... x sampai berapa text...

U balik ke mode : Busy tunggu jap ea syg???

Apakah ini U???

I tunggu lagi...

Tunggu... tunggu dan tunggu...

TAPI...

Akhirnya I tertido menunggu U...

Baliklah... I dah penat tunggu...

U... X rasa kesian ke???

U cakap i marah-marah sebab x faham...

Tapi fahamkah u apa yang i rasa???

U...penat tau...

Penat tunggu u...

Penat bising-bising...

Yang u tau...

'Kan i dah cakap... u ni i x faham la...'

Tu la yang u tau cakap...

Kecewanya i...

U selalu wat i rasa x dihargai...

Xpela u...

Sekarang i masih boleh tunggu...

Tapi... kalo x boleh???

U mana ade kisah semua tu...

Baliklah... I dah penat tunggu...

U... i selalu fikir...

Pernah x u rasa ape y i rasa sekarang ni???

Mesti u cakap pernahkan???
Bila u???

I benci u...

I benci selalu kena tunggu u...

U cakap nak pergi kejap je...

Tapi nape makin hari makin lambat je u nak balik...

U... i selalu fikir...

Bila i boleh wat cam u wat kat i???

Tapi tiap kali i try wat...

Selalu terfikir...

Kesian u...

Mesti u sedih kalo i wat camtu...

Selalu i fikir xnak wat u rasa teruk...

Tapi...

Bile i..

U xde pun fikir...

Xpelah u...

U wat la camni selalu...

U....

Baliklah... I dah penat tunggu...

U...

bukan main seronok lagi u kat sana...

I pun seronok gak kat sini...

Tapi boleh lagi curi-curi masa call u... text u..

Tapi nape ye... i rasa cam u xboleh???

Kecewanya i...

U... tadi i chat nga kawan i...

Die cakap...

Die terasa betul kehilangan seseorang yang penting pada die...

i pun cakap lah...

Hurm.... tu lah manusia...

Bila ade bersama x rasa nak hargai... xrasa nak sayang..

Tapi... Bila dah hilang...

Baru terkapai-kapai mencari balik...

Tapi???

Dah hilang...

Xboleh nak balik cam dulu...

*Teringat kita*

Hu~

U...

Baliklah... I dah penat tunggu...

U...

U R The best thing happen in my life...

Ni ayt status wall u kan???

Sape lah agak nya U tu ek???

U... bukan i sengaja cari gaduh ng u...

Tapi...

I dah fed up...

I tunggu u...

Tapi u x balik...

U layan i cam chipsmore...

Kejap ade... kejap xde...

Mesti u suka makan chipsmorekan???

Sebab tu kejap ade kejap xde...

X suke???

Abis tu nape selalu kejap ade kejap xde???
U...

Baliklah... i dah penat tunggu...

U...

Kat sini tiap-tiap hari hujan...

I tau u suka sangat hujan kan???

U pernah cakap...

Kat sana panas sangat-sangat...

Hurm...

U... baliklah...

I menuggu u dalam hujan... *ayat x boleh bla*

Tiap kali hujan...

I selalu teringat kat u...

Kalo u ade mesti u suka...

Best u...

Hujan... sejuk...

Tapi X best sangat...

I x boleh layan astro...

Asyik hujan...

U tau-tau je la...

Astro suka je wat hal bile time hujan...

U...

Baliklah... I dah penat tunggu...

U...

U suruh i tunggu u...

U cakap nak tengok cite unstoppable same-same...

U cakap nak tengok cite Harry Potter same-same...

Tapi...

U x balik jugak...

Penat u...

Penat i tunggu u...

Tapi u x balik-balik jugak...

Tengok???

Sampai i boleh wat entry panjang ni sebab tunggu u balik...

U...

Baliklah... i dah penat tunggu u...

U...

Kalo i dah xde...

Mesti u x rasa ape-ape kan???

U dah ade 'Angel'...

U ade orang lain...

Tapi i???

I rasa x penting pun pada u...

Terima Kasih u...

Sebab wat i rasa camni...

TERIMA KASIH U...

Baliklah... i dah penat tunggu u...

U...

I terasa cam dah x larat nak tunggu u dah...

Bolehkan i stop tunggu u...

U...

U xnak balik pun xpelah u...

Jangan Balik...

I dah penat tunggu u...

Sekian...

Penat menunggu...

Home sweet home~

Alhamdulillah...

Selamat sudah I sampai ke rumah...

terima Kasih En.Labu...

Kerana menghantar...

Hurm~ Terasa penat...

Satu hari mengemas rumah...

Nak pindah rumah baru la konon...

So, kena la wat ape y patut~

Kutip sampah, Sapu sampah, buang sampah, basuh pinggan and etc~

But gonna back to the 'old' house nanti~

Cause nk pindahkan brg ke rumah baru~

Anyway...

My plan for the holiday is...

KURUS!

I need to do something to lose my weight~

Insya'allah BOLEH~

Aminnn....

Owh...

Tomorrow is my girlfriend's birthday...

Need to prepare something for her...

Dinner at Benafee maybe??? *i like!*

Okay... need to end my writing...

Mr.Kiwa Calling~

*Best nya balik umh... macam2 ade*

p/s: Camne nk krs??? kt umh byk mknn sedap???

FINAL~

My semester comes to the end...

Like always...

Final exam!

27 Oct - 9th Nov...

Let's study~ Pray~ and Tawakal!

Put lots of effort this time...

Hopefully it will turn okay...

Insya'allah...

One more thing...

Can't wait to go back home!!!

Miss my home badly...

And the moving house stuff still on...

Till then...

Let's meet...

Mr.GEO.. He's the one in charge with the WORLD~ *Visiting the world!!!*

Mrs.Research...She's the one that in charge with the analysis and all the process~

Mrs.QMT... Done with the calculation thing! *Thanxx qmt for the tough time we had together*

Mrs.Risk... You are so risky!

Okay guys...

See u next time...

Fighting and Be strong!

New house~ New Life~

Hu~ Searching, finding new house is quite hard...

Moreover, if you try to search for the 'new house' in the season 'juniors' do~

What's Up with my old 'teratak'???

Well... i think i need a new environment for my new life...

Furthermore... my contract will end by this end of the year...

So, before my long holiday start... i need to find new house!!!

Today... i have my Risk Test... but why am i still in front of my lappy???

And... my head keep thinking about Quicksilver ~

Why??? Because i owe my Mr.Pumpkin a birthday present! *Hu~ I Love Him So Much*

11pm...

Alhamdulillah... I'm done with my test and planning...

I'm proud with myself *motivate myself with saying this magic words!*...

I've completed my Risk test with a relieved feeling... that's mean i can answer the test~ hihi...

Done with Mr.Pumpkin's Birthday present~

And the other good news is... i found new house!!!

In my life... when ever i'm stuck in 'hell' or hardship...

I always realize that... When ever i caught in the middle of hardship or problems....

Good things alway come after trying really hard... and when the time i feel like give up...

That's why... Don't ever think to give up easily...

For me... a person that easily give up trying is a weak person...

A loser i may say...

Not that i think i'm being so 'bagus'... but that's what i think...

Don't ever say you can't do it if you don't try...

Me myself... my life is not too perfect...

But what makes my life perfect is because...

THE PERSON stand beside me...

My Mom&Dad...

My Elder Sister...

My Lil sisters& Brothers...

My Family...

My Mr. Pumpkin...

I need them because they complete me...

Without them... i don't know how my life would be...

Dull maybe???

Why on earth i'm talking about this???

Cause making the right decision is not easy...

Decision to get out from my 'teratak' is not an easy decision...

Decision to start new life is not easy to make...

Decision to fight back is not easy...

Decision to back off is not easy...

Decision to walk alone is not easy...

Decision to make the decision is not easy...

It is not easy to make a decision if you are not strong and tough enough...

With what had happened with my life this past few days makes me strong...

Makes me realize how strong a person can be if they had to be...

New house~ New Friends~ New Life~

I hope i can be a better person once i step out from this conflict...

What i get from this conflict is... it is not easy to satisfied others...

But the most important is...

Friends come and go...

But family... Loved one... Always being there when ever we need them...

So, guys... cherish what you have now...

Love the one that care about YOU...

Care the one that love YOU...

Have faith in yourself...

Don't afraid to 'shake' the world... *Ayat nak poyo~*

Go for it if that is good for You...

Who are you???

Who are You???

It seems that i don't really know you...

You've changed!

Where are You???

You... who promise to be together...

You... who the one that i trust...

You... who i rely to...

But... Who are you now???

I don't really know you!

You~ Where are you???

Gone with the wind???

It's like you've gone forever...

With no turning back...

I've decide...

You and Me...

Have our own path...

You... with your new girls...

Change...

Day by day...

From a sweet friend of mine...

You turn out to be stranger...

I don't know you...

Who are you??

From a nice and comfort friend...

You turn out to be 'bad' and 'unpleasant' person...

Why must you change???

Because of my current status???

Hell if yes!

Unfortunately...

Yes...

Sorry Dear friend...

I don't need a friend that easily turn your back from me...

Cause a friend like that is not worth having one!

You easily change when you can't handle the situation...

You easily give up when you felt you gonna be alone...

But...

When you found her...

Friend that not worth having...

You change...

You left me because of her...

Well...

Like i care~

I don't care...

Go... Go with her...

The person that can make you laugh all the time...

Go... Go with her...

The person that change you...

Who are you???

I don't know you...

Silently...

We both change...

I change because you change me...

You've changed because she changed you...

Thank You...

Packed Day~

Today is Wednesday...

As usual... my Wednesday every week always packed...

From morning~

Till Noon~

My day start at 10.30am finish at 6.30pm... *tired*

And every Wednesday... my stomach would always feel like butterfly fly inside it~

Why???Because... QMT or Statistic subject~

I'm a bit slow in this subject...

And the Lecturer is so freaking good but... like i said before because of my slowness in math...

i always feel 'scared'... hahaha....

And because i always felt like i'm the dumbness in the class...

Trust me... Why??? Just imagine this... my 1st and 2nd quiz...

FAILED!!

But Thank God, Thank You to my Sweet Mr.Pumpkin and to my 'Teacher' Mr.Ayie...

I managed to passed the 1st test of the subject! *Yeay!!!*

Okay let's not talk about that too much~

Today, 06102010...

for the 1st time, my QMT Class CANCEL!

Because my Dear Madam got an emergency~

With a bright smile... i feel like...

Hu~ Free!!!

My classmate??? Of course like a wild animal 'celebrate' it~ *because QMT make them Stress*

Me??? and my girls???

Sakinah, Zeeqah, Ili~ Went to their world, which is 'Dreamland'... kikikiki

Ulfa and Me??? Hurm~ at 1st we just planned to get some lunch hours MCD, pay my bill, survey stuffs at Quicksilver boutique and go back home.

But... like old folks say... we can only planned... only God who determines~

All our planned changed! From Mahkota Parade, Dataran Pahlawan...

We went to Taman Kesidang... fetched Amin, Ustad and Bibi...

We went Klebang~ to have our high-tea there...

The menu are... Coconut-shake ~ Roti Jala *teringat Mak Mr.Pumpkin nye roti jala* and nasi lemak.

Hu~ after got back home... so tired... but my cafe world is waiting~ hahaha...

But instead playing games... i reached my blog... *my blog is a place to express my feeling i think~*

I have wasted my free Wednesday with doing nothing! T.T

I should study thou~

L.O.V.E Equal to P.A.I.N

Just now...

A friend from Sabah called...

I know.. to get a call from him must be something he wanna talked about...

My guess is totally right...

When he start to talk...

I stop all the crap things that came out from his mouth~

And asked him to go straight to his point...

And his problem was...

He still can't move on from his one side love...

One side love~

FYI...

That girls used to be his girlfriend...

But after seeing other boy...

She dumped my friend~

My friend... He's one of my special boy...

Because we've been friends since high school...

He's the one that sometimes send me home, fetched me when ever i want...

Hang out just to eat 'Edlee Fried Chicken'...

He's a good friend to me and a good boyfriend to a girlfriend...

Why i said that???

Because once he fall for someone truly...

He'll be the loyal person on this planet... *I know him well*

I hate that girl who never appreciate my boy~

You are so stupid for not realizing how amazing and priceless his love...

It's not easy to find someone that really want a serious commitment with you...

Cause these days... Serious is not in a 'lover' dictionary i may say...

But i can't blame the girl if she doesn't love him anymore...

Love easily change if you think it is easy to find love... *Bullshit*

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Love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurt...

Just imagine this situation...

You have a crush with this girl...

You love him...

and after a while thinking you go and confess to the girl that you love her...

If the girl likes you back, you're lucky!

But if don't???

You'll feel like you are so 'hell'...

So... telling the truth about your love to someone sometimes painful...

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Same goes to my dear friend...

He tried everything to win back the girl that he love...

But... face it...

Love cannot be forces...

We can't force someone to love you back even though you know your love is so deep...

This is about heart...

We can't easily talk about heart and feelings...

Even though i tried to comfort him...

Still i can't help him because he is the only one that can help himself... *What the...*

I know... love is so suck~

There is a say that said...

'Where there is love, there is pain'

You cannot run nor you cannot hide from love...

Love and pain are meant to be together...

You have to take the risk when you decide to give your heart to someone...

Loving someone that cannot love you back is so heartache... *Again... What the...*

So, here i tell you...

LOVE IS NOT A EASY THING!

Give your heart to someone that can appreciate it...

Love the one that love you...

Don't go for the person that you love...

Cause the person that you love will leave you for the person that they love...

LOVE IS COMPLICATED~

Happy Birthday!

September~

9th/09... Mr.Pumpkin

16th/09... Adillah

19th/09... My Aunt

20th/09... Me~

26th/09... Zee

28th/09... Gee

30th/09... Wan

Happy Birthday guys!

And Selamat Hari Raya~

Girls love Surprises~

Surprises...

What do you really know about that???

For me...

Surprises is something that unpredictable and unexpected things...

What with the surprise thing hu???

My Pumpkin used to surprises me with roses, present and others...

But now...

Hurm...

Well... just wanna share something that girls love...

All girls love surprises but, for some, the biggest surprise comes when a man treats a girl like a lady and not a piece of trash!

When talking about surprises...

You're talking about girls exciting moment...

Girls love surprises...

Even though just a simple surprises they'll love it...

More over, the surprises is from their loves one...

Is not that you, boys need to do it often...

But sometimes~

Because that's show to them how special they are to you...

You don't have to get her expensive things or somethings that you can't afford...

Leave or attach 'I Love You' or 'You are special' note still a surprise...

Just a simple but special...

Will melt girls heart...

Most girls don't ask too much...

Me, myself... i love surprises...

I love to make my Pumpkin happy with surprises...

It show how important and how much i always think about him...

And is not a crime a girl makes surprise for boy...

So, Boys...

Appreciate them...

Treat them nicely...

Show to them how important their are to you...

A small surprises can bring a big happiness to girls...

This may sound funny but there are too many unhappy women/girl out there that just want to know that they're appreciated once in awhile and little things do mean a lot.

Most men/boy don't realize what they have until it's gone so if you want to keep them, keep them happy!