Friday, October 29, 2010

How to Cure and Prevent mouth Ulcer?

What Is Mouth Ulcer?
Mouth ulcer is also known as canker sore or apthous ulcer. It is ulcer with red rim that form inside the lips or cheeks or even tongue. They burn and tingle, especially when you eat spicy or acidic food.

Causes
Based on what I found, the process causing the sores in unknown. However, few possible causes are:

  1. When you inadvertently bite your tongue or the inside of the cheek, the wound could become an ulcer.
  2. It could be also a symptom of lacking nutrients and therefore affecting immune system.
  3. Emotionally stressed
  4. Food sensitivities may trigger ulcers too. Foods that cause this problem include acidic fruits and chocolates.

How To Cure Mouth Ulcer
Good news is that mouth ulcer rarely cause complication. Most heal naturally with time (1 to 2 weeks) without medication. The only possible complication which mouth ulcer may cause is bacterial infection. In rare cases, an infected ulcer may infect your teeth. Here are few ways to cure mouth ulcer:

  • Rinse mouth with warm salt water several times a day.
  • Chinese rely more on herbs in the treatment of cranker sores.
    • Some herbs contain tannins (tannic acid) which have wound healing properties. Calendula tea, goldenseal tea or even the regular beverage tea provide rich supply of tannis. You can gargle tea to heal the mouth ulcer.
    • Based on my personal experience, highly recommendWatermelon Frost. I used it ever since I was small. This gray powder is made from watermelon rind (the white outer layer) as the main ingredient and other Chinese medicinal materials. It has a unique curative effect.
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  • Tomatoes juice can be helpful too for the treatment of mouth ulcers.
  • You can try using brown sugar. Before you go to bed, take a pinch of brown sugar and press it into the sore. Brown sugar suck the acid out of the sore and therefore allowing it to heal.
  • When you have mouth ulcer, avoid spciy food, hot tea and coffee. Some people find that certain food such as peanut, coffee or chocolate can make them more likely to get ulcer. If you know that particular food provokes an ulcer, take note and avoid eating that food until your ulcer have completely healed.

How to Alleviate the Pain of Mouth Ulcer

  • Some over-the-counter topical gel like Bonjela (popular in the UK) andCankermelts may help reduce the pain of ulcers.
  • You can also numb the pain with ice cube. However, it will hurt initially. After a while, the pain will be numbed temporarily.
  • Another method for temporary pain relief is to gargle with mouth wash. Again, you may scream for pain at first, but it is relieving afterward. If your mouth ulcer is caused by dry mouth, alcohol-based Listerine may not be helpful. Use mouth wash specially made for dry mouth such asBiotene or Oasis.

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How To Prevent Mouth Ulcer

  • If you are prone to canker sore from time to time, avoid biting or hurting the inside of your mouth. Use softer toothbrush, rectify the position of your tooth (by wearing braces) and avoid hard sharp-edged food.
  • If stress is the root cause, exercise and relaxation may be the long-term answer. Yoga is highly recommended.

p/s: Malas bukan main nak tulis... So, just copy paste. Jahat ek??? But... Remember guys, after copy paste please credit to the person for the hard work ok??? *Wink wink*

Monday, October 25, 2010

J-Co time~


Today...
Went to the library...
Study~ Study~ Study~
For the final...
Well... done with the studying...
Gurl a.k.a Jake Jeff... Lapa...
About 6pm i think~
So, berangkat lah kami keluar...
Isi minyak... *Yeay! Kami sama-sama tongtong duit minyak~*
Sweet kan??? *sweet benda???*
Yela sama-sama keluar duit tuk minyak...
Sweet la tu... *for me la*
Singgah rumah amik Ulfa a.k.a Miss lolipop ngn Bibi a.k.a Bieterfly...
Pegi makan kat Restoran Kuning...
Sambil tunggu makanan sampai...
Cik Ulfa mengusulkan cadangan beliau mahu pergi berjalan-jalan ke Jusco~
Owh~ I like Jusco~
Even though just pergi jusco untuk xbeli pape pun suka...
Nape ek???
X tau la... Mungkin jusco best! *Wink2*
Okay... dah sudah makan kami ke Jusco...
Mr and Mrs Lolipop masuk jusco bersama Mr and Mrs Bieterfly...
Saya dan En.Labu???
Owh~ Tebtunyalah ke tingkat3... Tempat kesukaan Beliau...
Kenapa???
Tingkat3 adalah tempat dimana 'gadget-gadget' berada...
Dah penat merayau...
Terserempaklah kawan En.Labu...
Dorg lepak kat J-Co...
Hurm.. maka datanglah keinginan En.Labu nak makan donut J-Co... *Comel je die... wink2*
So, after merayau-rayau...
Kami lepak jap kat J-Co...
Wah~ Bukan main sedap lagi lah Yogurt and orange freeze die...

~Bukan main comot lagi makan~

~Searching for his donut~

~Muka puas dapat J-Co~

~Bibi and Jake~

~With Freeze~

~Bibi, Thank You for the Freeze!!!~

Episode 1 : Motivation


Bagun pagi-pagi...
Terasa malas sangat nk study...
Terasa malas sangat nak keluar study kat library...
Tapi gagahkan jua kaki dan badan sebab dah berjanji ng En.Labu nak ajar die HRM...
Dah siap-siap...
Turun...
Duduk jap... Konon-konon nak borak kejap lah kan ngn Miss Lolipop...
Sebab semalaman x jumpe Miss Lolipop~ *sedap x name kamoo??*
Final dah nak dekat lagi beberapa hari je lagi...
Tapi gamaknya baru tersedar yang diri ni akhir-akhir ni tersangat lah 'lemah'...
Terasa xde motivasi...
Masalah pada pagi tadi yang kami bincangkan adalah tentang 'semangat'...

Hurm... Problem and solution...
Well, cam penah saya ceritakan pada entry y lepas...
Betapa 'teruk'nya kehidupan saya akhir-akhir ini...
Dengan masalah yang x pernah berhenti mengganggu...
Semakin hari semakin terasa 'malas' and 'give up'....
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Pernah x rasa bila gagal dalam satu benda yang kita nak buat...
kita rasa give up sangat???
Saya selalu alami 'kegagalan'....
Dalam ramai-ramai kawan...
Saya ni sering kali jatuh pada tangga tercorot or in other word...
AVERAGE PERSON!
Dah tahu diri ni 'average'... tetap x nak gandakan usaha...
Saya sering kali terasa diri ni dah cukup dengan apa yang ada...
Maka bila terasa cukup... or berpuas hati dengan menjadi average...
Saya malas nak tingkatkan 'kedudukan' tu...
Tetapi... sejak mengenali dunia 'Degree'...
Segalanya berubah...
Tambah-tambah bila dah tersedar yang 'kawan' x boleh nak tolong kita berjaya...
KAWAN ya??? itu KAWAN...
Tetapi... PENDORONG, PEMBAKAR SEMANGAT... Lain ya...
Itu nama nya SAHABAT...
SAHABAT sentiasa berada bersama kita di dalam susah atau senang...
Sentiasa mendorong kita....
Bergelak ketawa bersama...
Menangis bersama...
Kenapa saya cakap kawan x tolong untuk kita berjaya?
Sebab ada satu kisah...
Seorang kawan bersama kawannya menduduki peperiksaan...
Kawan tu pandai, y kawan sorang lagi tu biasa-biasa je...
Tapi mereka sama-sama belajar...
Tiiba hari peperiksaan... mereka jawab...
Tiba hari dapat result...
Kawan yang biasa-biasa lulus dengan cemerlangnya...
Tetapi... yang kawan yang pandai gagal...
Sebagai kawan, sepatutnya mereka bergembira...
Yup! Kawan yang biasa dah tentu-tentulah gembira sebab lulus...
Kawan yang pandai... sedih dan kecewa...
Tapi kawan yang biasa tu turut bersedih kerana kawan yang pandai tu sedih...
Tetapi kawan yang pandai x rasa gembira sedikit pun untuk kejayaan kawan yang biasa...
Maka sedarlah diri kawan yang biasa... bahawa... kawan yang pandai hanyalah KAWAN...
Sejak dari itu dia usaha usaha dan usaha...
Tetapi tetap juga dapat markah yang 'biasa' tetap juga 'average person'...
Tetapi... ada tapi-tapi plak dah~
Dia xpernah rasa sedih... adalah juga rasa sedih tapi bagi dia... itu perkara yang normal...
Dan bertuah... kerana berpeluang untuk menggenal siapa diri dia yang sebenar...
Dimana kekuatan dan kelemahan diri...
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Moral of this story:
Kawan tidak akan sentiasa berkongsi apa yang kita ada...
Kawan juga tidak akan sentiasa ada untuk kita...
Gagal sekali bukan bermaksud gagal selamanya...
Kegagalan mengajar kita erti kejayaan...
Tak percaya??? Hurm...
Tunggu cerita yang akan menyusul di 'entry' yang baru ye???




Sunday, October 24, 2010

When it's time to let go...

When it's time to let go...
You'll let go...
Your Heart seem to hurt a lil bit...
But it will heal...

When it's time to let go...
You'll let go...
Even though it's kinda hard...
Even though is not what you really want...
You'll have to let go...

When it's time to let go...
You'll let go...
Even though you still love him...
Even though you need him...
Even though you cry and cry...
You have to let it go...

When it's time to let go...
You'll let it go...
Even though you still attached to the string...
Even though you still hold on to the promises both of you made
Even though you still remember the sweet memories...
Even though you still cherish the love you had...
You just have to let it go...

When the time comes...
You have to FACE it with a brave and big heart...
But still...
Still hoping that the love that we shared together never fade away...
Still hoping that we'll back to normal...
Still hoping the same love you gave all these times...
But...
When it's time to let go...
I have to let go...
I still Love you...
I'm crying inside...

Saturday, October 23, 2010

FINAL~

My semester comes to the end...
Like always...
Final exam!
27 Oct - 9th Nov...
Let's study~ Pray~ and Tawakal!
Put lots of effort this time...
Hopefully it will turn okay...
Insya'allah...
One more thing...
Can't wait to go back home!!!
Miss my home badly...
And the moving house stuff still on...
Till then...
Let's meet...
Mr.GEO.. He's the one in charge with the WORLD~ *Visiting the world!!!*
Mrs.Research...She's the one that in charge with the analysis and all the process~
Mrs.QMT... Done with the calculation thing! *Thanxx qmt for the tough time we had together*
Mrs.Risk... You are so risky!

Okay guys...
See u next time...
Fighting and Be strong!


Friday, October 22, 2010

Samsung Galaxy S~


Huh~ Baru balik from hanging out...
Today... My Mr.Pumpkin got his new 'Baby'...
Named Samsung Galaxy S...
So awesome~ *should i get one for myself???*
Very the best bak kate Mr.Pumpkin~
And definitely... He's so happy...

SAMSUNG GALAXY S~

I pun actually x faham sgt how his new 'baby' function...
Yang i tau... I telah dimadukan... *poyo*
Ye r~ dah tentu die amat-amat la tersayang his new 'baby'...
Well... enough with the merepek...
I nak story sikit about this Samsung Galaxy S ni...

Samsung Galaxy S features:

1. Receiving a good reception :
Samsung mobile phones employ an internal antenna design technology that optimises reception quality for any type of hand grip.

2. Bright, fast, and connected :
Enjoy the best viewing experience with 4.0” SUPER AMOLED (Active - Matrix Organic Light - Emitting Diode) display. With 80% less reflection, you can watch your favourite content in broad daylight and enjoy a crisp, clear picture. And, with 1Ghz processor, 16GB internal memory, and Wireless Tethering, you have the speed, space, and access you need to stay connected wherever you roam.

3. A universe of content :
Easily source gaming content from PC and Android MarketTM, and enjoy the best picture quality. Record in HD and play it in HD right on your TV - with the phone as the remote control. Android Market is a trademark of Google, Inc.

4. Edit documents with ease
5. Turn - by - Turn Navigation

6. Text at hyperspeed with Swype



Okay~ If you nak tau lebih... Sila lah ke link ini ye~


Samsung blh cakap ade ala-ala iphone...
But... This one is much better i think~
Except that it doesn't have flash~
But other than that... ALL PERFECT!


Wednesday, October 20, 2010

2010 2010PM


2010, 2010PM...
Poyo!
History moment~
In Malacca...
Can't wait to be on that day next year...
And hoping both of us still together... *Insya'Allah*

~I'll walk with you...~

I'll walk with you...
No matter what is the situation be...
I'll be with you...
Holding your hand...
Never let it go...
Face all the bitter and sweet roads...
I'll cherish every steps that we take...
Cause being with you is what i want to be...
Standing beside you is what i love to do...
Being with you is the best moment that i could be...

I'll walk with you...
No matter where the road takes us...
Your love makes me strong...
Your smile makes my world bright...
You... makes my heart song everyday...
Love you... Mr.Pumpkin...





Saturday, October 16, 2010

Kl~Jb


16th Oct 2010...
En.Labu menghabiskan masa beliau bersama family saya...
Like these moment when you stuck with my big family with nowhere to go...hihihi *evil laugh*









p/s: Lots of pic actually tapi lupe nak amik kat Along~

Friday, October 15, 2010

Friendship Never End

Even though many things happen these few days...
Today... when i'm packing-packing barang nak moving out...
i felt like very 'berat'... *crying*
Sebab... i'm letting you go...
Sebab... i'm moving out...
Sebab... i know i'm not going to be 'This Azza'...
Sebab... I'm going to be new Azza...
Sebab... i'm going to miss our old days...
Macam-macam dah jadi...
But deep down in my heart...
We still friends...
I may look firm with my decision...
That's because i have and need to be...
That's for our own good...
Moving out just an option for not to 'keruh'kan hubungan kita...
I still love you... Love us...
But i don't want both of us getting hurt...
Let hurt now then hurt much worst after this...
Sekarang pun both of us sangat terluka...
But i know... you hurt just for a while... that's good...
I don't like to see you 'unhappy' with 'us'...
That's why i'm letting you go...
I'll forgive but never forget...
Hope u'll life happily after this...
I know i should not worry about that cause you have her now...
But if You need someone...
You need a shoulder to cry...
I'll be there... *Insya'Allah*
We still friends...
May be masing-masing xtau nak approach masing-masing camne...
May be takes time...
Just remember...
We still friends...
Don't feel like i'm stranger...
I still love you...

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I blame her for things that happen between us...
Yup... I'm 'degil'...
I'm not crying regretting all these...
Never!!
Crying because... when i recall back...
What we have...
What we share...
It's heartache~
But slowly... we both gonna heal...
I know that...
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To My Dear Chinggu... Ms.Heechul~
I'm sorry...
Ingat x dulu...
Mase mule-mule nk masuk 'sini'???
Excited gile...
That time i made promise...
Actually 'we' made the promise...
I'll be there for you...
U'll be there for me...
We'll share everything...

Now... when i ingat balik...
Seriously... Hati sakit sangat...
I rase gagal...
Cause for me...
You are my responsibility...
But once i'm moving out...
We just being 'friends'...
But still... i felt hard...
Risau...
Just remember...
I'm gonna be there where ever... when ever you need...
Cause...
Friendship between us... Never Ends...
Me and You...
Together...

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

New house~ New Life~


Hu~ Searching, finding new house is quite hard...
Moreover, if you try to search for the 'new house' in the season 'juniors' do~
What's Up with my old 'teratak'???
Well... i think i need a new environment for my new life...
Furthermore... my contract will end by this end of the year...
So, before my long holiday start... i need to find new house!!!
Today... i have my Risk Test... but why am i still in front of my lappy???
And... my head keep thinking about Quicksilver ~
Why??? Because i owe my Mr.Pumpkin a birthday present! *Hu~ I Love Him So Much*

11pm...
Alhamdulillah... I'm done with my test and planning...
I'm proud with myself *motivate myself with saying this magic words!*...
I've completed my Risk test with a relieved feeling... that's mean i can answer the test~ hihi...
Done with Mr.Pumpkin's Birthday present~
And the other good news is... i found new house!!!
In my life... when ever i'm stuck in 'hell' or hardship...
I always realize that... When ever i caught in the middle of hardship or problems....
Good things alway come after trying really hard... and when the time i feel like give up...
That's why... Don't ever think to give up easily...
For me... a person that easily give up trying is a weak person...
A loser i may say...
Not that i think i'm being so 'bagus'... but that's what i think...
Don't ever say you can't do it if you don't try...
Me myself... my life is not too perfect...
But what makes my life perfect is because...
THE PERSON stand beside me...
My Mom&Dad...
My Elder Sister...
My Lil sisters& Brothers...
My Family...
My Mr. Pumpkin...
I need them because they complete me...
Without them... i don't know how my life would be...
Dull maybe???
Why on earth i'm talking about this???
Cause making the right decision is not easy...
Decision to get out from my 'teratak' is not an easy decision...
Decision to start new life is not easy to make...
Decision to fight back is not easy...
Decision to back off is not easy...
Decision to walk alone is not easy...
Decision to make the decision is not easy...
It is not easy to make a decision if you are not strong and tough enough...
With what had happened with my life this past few days makes me strong...
Makes me realize how strong a person can be if they had to be...

New house~ New Friends~ New Life~
I hope i can be a better person once i step out from this conflict...
What i get from this conflict is... it is not easy to satisfied others...
But the most important is...
Friends come and go...
But family... Loved one... Always being there when ever we need them...
So, guys... cherish what you have now...
Love the one that care about YOU...
Care the one that love YOU...
Have faith in yourself...
Don't afraid to 'shake' the world... *Ayat nak poyo~*
Go for it if that is good for You...






Saturday, October 9, 2010

Who are you???


Who are You???
It seems that i don't really know you...
You've changed!
Where are You???
You... who promise to be together...
You... who the one that i trust...
You... who i rely to...
But... Who are you now???
I don't really know you!
You~ Where are you???
Gone with the wind???
It's like you've gone forever...
With no turning back...
I've decide...
You and Me...
Have our own path...
You... with your new girls...
Change...
Day by day...
From a sweet friend of mine...
You turn out to be stranger...
I don't know you...
Who are you??
From a nice and comfort friend...
You turn out to be 'bad' and 'unpleasant' person...
Why must you change???
Because of my current status???
Hell if yes!
Unfortunately...
Yes...
Sorry Dear friend...
I don't need a friend that easily turn your back from me...
Cause a friend like that is not worth having one!
You easily change when you can't handle the situation...
You easily give up when you felt you gonna be alone...
But...
When you found her...
Friend that not worth having...
You change...
You left me because of her...
Well...
Like i care~
I don't care...
Go... Go with her...
The person that can make you laugh all the time...
Go... Go with her...
The person that change you...
Who are you???
I don't know you...
Silently...
We both change...
I change because you change me...
You've changed because she changed you...
Thank You...





Friday, October 8, 2010

Friday oh Friday~


Today, 081010, Friday...
Every Friday, i always wake up at 7am because Friday is the only day that have morning class which start at 8.30am~ *Hu~*
But today... i don't have to wake up early like always because No morning class... *Risk canceled*
But... because of QMT class, i have to wake up early... Why??? Because of QUIZ~ *i must score this quiz!* i need to revise some question for the quiz... T.T
Okay... proceed to the 'Friday'...
As we arrived~ *Rushing cause late for class!* we thought that Madam already start the quiz...
But thank God~ Madam x masuk lagi... *hakhakah*
~LUCKY~
So, we waited for several minute *about 30 minute gak lah*
Last-last... Class canceled too~
Actually today we have Research Test... second test~
Like QMT... I NEED TO SCORE~
If not... i'm totally dead! *Final around the corner*
Hurm... Before revise... go get some energy*eat lor~*...
Sambil jalan ke MARA... tangan menaip msg untuk Mr.Pumpkin ... Saje kacoo~
But... after beberapa msg... hati tertanya-tanya... 'Mengape die x balas ek?'
Hurm... suddenly... Go Away~ my ringtone...
'You... Nape x kejutkan i... i have HRM Class!!'
Hurm... pendek cite... i need to fetch him because i'm using his car today...
Okay... Enough!
Maka, berangkat la Mr.Pumpkin ke kelas...
And me??? I went level12... jumpe Ulfa~
After beberapa minute...
Ada orang menyapa~ *Oh~ My Mr.Pumpkin rupanya*
~Maka bermula lah conversation kami~
Me: Hurm... cepat nya habis kelas~
Him: Ala... i just masuk kejap for sign attendance~
Me: A'ah ek... skg pn dah pukul berapa... *jam menunjukkan 12.05pm*
So, kitorang went for lunch... *x makan lagi sebab tunggu die*
But before gerak... Tergerak hati nak tanya...
Me: Ah! Wani... sampling masuk ke???
Wani: Eh~ masuk la...
Me: Ooookay~ *Cuak*... X Sentuh pn topik tu~
Maka pantas tangan menyalin nota...
Me: You... you gerak dulu t i follow~
Him: Alaaa... Okay... tapi cepat sikit tau...
Me:Okay!
*Pendek story*
Mr.Pumpkin tunggu kat tempat makan favorite i~ *Nasi ayam Klasik*
But... Baru je duduk...
Him: You... Nasi ayam dah abis ar...
Argh! Kecewa nya!!!
So, we've decide to dine kat KFC~
Terbang RM23.80~
Makan pun sudah~ Study pun sudah~ Test je belum lagi...
Jam kat dinding library level12 menunjukkan 2.25pm... *ah~ lagi minute*
Kelam0kabut bersiap... turun naik tangga... mencari kelas...
Rupa-rupanya... 'Wei~ kelas kat Graha la!'...
Berlarian la I, Ulfa, Shiera and Bibi ke Graha...
Panjat tangga...
Sampai! Gosh~ test dah mula...
Masuk je... amik kertas.. dapat je kertas... *Check... masuk ke x hint puan tu*
Ah~ semua masuk... dengan gembiranya... Tangan i laju menulis...
Ending nya... I answer all the question!! *Ye la research ni banyak theory*
So... test pun sudah... it's time for releasing stress~
What's up??? Swimming jom! *Hahahaha... my new xtvt in malacca*

What on earth i'm mumbling???
Well... Who cares??? I'm a free person...
I talk when i want...
I stop when i wanna stop!
So... This is my Friday, 081010...
Friday... See you next week! ^^

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Happy Whopper Hours!

Hahaha... Today the whole day, Burger King have their 'happy hours' like Jusco~
A Whopper only at RM1! But with Soft drink...
So, total up... Soft Drink+ A whopper= RM4!
Hurm... My stomach full with Whopper~
My friends 'borong' habis-habisan the whopper~
Sorang beli 3set with only RM12~ Max 3burgers for 1person~ X)
Sape x gile??? Bukan selalu Burger King wat 'Happy Hours' cam ni kan??? hakhakhak~

After eating the Whopper... Baru sedar... Me, mysefl... getting 'besar' day by day!!!
Omoooo~ How to be 'small' again???
Huhuhuhuhu... *I love food!*
Padahal... Baru 'sebat' 2bungkus nasi lemak before makan whopper~ T.T

Packed Day~

Today is Wednesday...
As usual... my Wednesday every week always packed...
From morning~
Till Noon~
My day start at 10.30am finish at 6.30pm... *tired*
And every Wednesday... my stomach would always feel like butterfly fly inside it~
Why???Because... QMT or Statistic subject~

I'm a bit slow in this subject...
And the Lecturer is so freaking good but... like i said before because of my slowness in math...
i always feel 'scared'... hahaha....
And because i always felt like i'm the dumbness in the class...
Trust me... Why??? Just imagine this... my 1st and 2nd quiz...
FAILED!!
But Thank God, Thank You to my Sweet Mr.Pumpkin and to my 'Teacher' Mr.Ayie...
I managed to passed the 1st test of the subject! *Yeay!!!*
Okay let's not talk about that too much~
Today, 06102010...
for the 1st time, my QMT Class CANCEL!
Because my Dear Madam got an emergency~
With a bright smile... i feel like...
Hu~ Free!!!
My classmate??? Of course like a wild animal 'celebrate' it~ *because QMT make them Stress*
Me??? and my girls???
Sakinah, Zeeqah, Ili~ Went to their world, which is 'Dreamland'... kikikiki
Ulfa and Me??? Hurm~ at 1st we just planned to get some lunch hours MCD, pay my bill, survey stuffs at Quicksilver boutique and go back home.
But... like old folks say... we can only planned... only God who determines~
All our planned changed! From Mahkota Parade, Dataran Pahlawan...
We went to Taman Kesidang... fetched Amin, Ustad and Bibi...
We went Klebang~ to have our high-tea there...
The menu are... Coconut-shake ~ Roti Jala *teringat Mak Mr.Pumpkin nye roti jala* and nasi lemak.
Hu~ after got back home... so tired... but my cafe world is waiting~ hahaha...
But instead playing games... i reached my blog... *my blog is a place to express my feeling i think~*
I have wasted my free Wednesday with doing nothing! T.T
I should study thou~

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Feeling Like Giving Up~


Today the whole day i don't text or call Mr.Pumpkin. And for the first times, i felt like nothing~ doesn't really matter~ or i don't care~
And before our last class ended today, he text me in the class *even though we are in the same class* asking 'can i come to your house today? i want to use your streamyx~' then i reply 'Okay'.
Well, actually we got into a fight last night because of a necklace.
So, i don't wanna talk with him~ Sending a war signal! *and he accepted it*
Then... after class he asked me out... to Digi Center... he wanna take a look at Digi package on iPhone~ *Dari aritu bising nk pakai iPhone* at first i jual mahal...
Me: Hurm... Sorry... can't go~ i have something to do.
Him: Owh~ Okay then...

After 20 minutes....
Me: Hurm... Okay then... i can go... *God~ What on earth am i thinking that time???*
Him: Smile~ Okay... i'll fetch you after i get home...
Me: Okay.

After 45minutes reached home...
No message~ No call from him~ *start to pissed off a lil*
Then without wasting my time...
go to my inbox and start to text him...
'What time do u wanna go out? i have assignment to do tonight'...
No reply~
Another message from me to HIM~
'Okay. Times Up~ i take it as your are so not serious asking me out. Bye'
Hurm... may be i'm kinda person that have very 'low' patient when it comes to Mr.Pumpkin~ *Sorry* cause for me you are so not taking me seriously~
And because of that we always 'gaduh'~ over and over again...

Okay~ enough with that...
after 25minutes past...
My inbox have 1 message~ guess from whom???
Yup~ Mr.Pumpkin...
Him: I went for futsal just now... Jom ah... Kuar sekarang.
My reaction...
Futsal??? Okay... i'm a person tha
t really takes small things seriously!
I don't care with the futsal things... but no sorry from him... and can you please inform me earlier??? can???
Well... with a 'cloudy' feeling...
Me: Xnak la... i dah siap2 tadi but you say nothing... so, i don't wanna go anymore. Moreover, i need to do my Arabic assignment tonight.
Less than a second... my phone ring~
He called...
You jom la kuar... tadi i main futsal...
x kan nak main futsal bawa phone kan???
Me: Okay... sorry i x nk kua.
Him: Alaaa... jom la...
Me: *Silent*
Him: Okay la... ikut you la...
~Conversation End~

Benda kecik... tapi for me...
Like... okay... penat la...
Tiba-tiba... feeling like giving up...
Asyik gaduh je...
Penat la...
Benda y same je selalu...
Masing-masing dgn ego masing-masing...
I know... others will say...
You should feel lucky for having him...
I know... but others can say things that they can see...
Things that they cannot see??? How???
Giving up???
What should i do???
Deep down in my heart... i know that i can't let him go...
Playing with my EGO that is big like an elephant...
Just give up... No more you can do~ *my ego*
Hu~




Monday, October 4, 2010

Valuable~

Valuable~ What does that really mean?? Valuable... is having great material or monetary value especially for use or exchange... or in other words is something of value. That's what the Dictionary.com said. My says??? Valuable is having something that worthless, that have sentimental values...

Why am i talking about valuable??? Well... Last night... i lost my necklace~
Well may be some of you guys out there will say that 'it's just a necklace' 'You can get another one'...
Yup i can get another one same as before~ but for me... even though i replace it with 10 necklaces, it won't be the same as the lost one... Why??? Valuable~
Not because of the price... but because my special someone present it to me...
because of SENTIMENTAL VALUE!
I, may be a 'romantic' *Am i??* kind of person... Well some times~
That necklace not too 'mahal' but for me it is 'mahal'~
Daaa~ How can you get a necklace in the popcorn while watching movies???
it is like 1:1oo times to get it in the popcorn~
and turn out... Your 'Love' planned it already~
Hurm... got sentimental value right???

I'am kinda of upset... Why??? Because i felt like the necklace is just a necklace for you...
I don't ask much... For me... when you gave me that present, i'll cherish it too the end...
But why do you make me sad???
Necklace hanya lah seutas rantai pada you...
Yang tak bermakna langsung... *that's what i think*
No effort from you to go and seek for it...
But thank God... with my effort i finally found it after searching every where~
Not in my house... but near the place that we always hang out...
Guys...
Just think a minute...
If he put an effort to search for the necklace and if 'takdir' says you can't find it then it's okay...
But... if you don't go and try... How can you know you can get it back???
I try... and trying... at last...
I FOUND IT!
Thank You 'Mr.Pumpkin'... Thank You for not trying.