Feeling Like Giving Up~

Today the whole day i don't text or call Mr.Pumpkin. And for the first times, i felt like nothing~ doesn't really matter~ or i don't care~

And before our last class ended today, he text me in the class *even though we are in the same class* asking 'can i come to your house today? i want to use your streamyx~' then i reply 'Okay'.

Well, actually we got into a fight last night because of a necklace.

So, i don't wanna talk with him~ Sending a war signal! *and he accepted it*

Then... after class he asked me out... to Digi Center... he wanna take a look at Digi package on iPhone~ *Dari aritu bising nk pakai iPhone* at first i jual mahal...

Me: Hurm... Sorry... can't go~ i have something to do.

Him: Owh~ Okay then...

After 20 minutes....

Me: Hurm... Okay then... i can go... *God~ What on earth am i thinking that time???*

Him: Smile~ Okay... i'll fetch you after i get home...

Me: Okay.

After 45minutes reached home...

No message~ No call from him~ *start to pissed off a lil*

Then without wasting my time...

go to my inbox and start to text him...

'What time do u wanna go out? i have assignment to do tonight'...

No reply~

Another message from me to HIM~

'Okay. Times Up~ i take it as your are so not serious asking me out. Bye'

Hurm... may be i'm kinda person that have very 'low' patient when it comes to Mr.Pumpkin~ *Sorry* cause for me you are so not taking me seriously~

And because of that we always 'gaduh'~ over and over again...

Okay~ enough with that...

after 25minutes past...

My inbox have 1 message~ guess from whom???

Yup~ Mr.Pumpkin...

Him: I went for futsal just now... Jom ah... Kuar sekarang.

My reaction...

Futsal??? Okay... i'm a person tha

t really takes small things seriously!

I don't care with the futsal things... but no sorry from him... and can you please inform me earlier??? can???

Well... with a 'cloudy' feeling...

Me: Xnak la... i dah siap2 tadi but you say nothing... so, i don't wanna go anymore. Moreover, i need to do my Arabic assignment tonight.

Less than a second... my phone ring~

He called...

You jom la kuar... tadi i main futsal...

x kan nak main futsal bawa phone kan???

Me: Okay... sorry i x nk kua.

Him: Alaaa... jom la...

Me: *Silent*

Him: Okay la... ikut you la...

~Conversation End~

Benda kecik... tapi for me...

Like... okay... penat la...

Tiba-tiba... feeling like giving up...

Asyik gaduh je...

Penat la...

Benda y same je selalu...

Masing-masing dgn ego masing-masing...

I know... others will say...

You should feel lucky for having him...

I know... but others can say things that they can see...

Things that they cannot see??? How???

Giving up???

What should i do???

Deep down in my heart... i know that i can't let him go...

Playing with my EGO that is big like an elephant...

Just give up... No more you can do~ *my ego*

Hu~